It Just Is

“Life has no meaning, it just is” – Morgan Freeman on Through the Wormhole

I believe Morgan has a point. And it is not in conflict with the beliefs of Christianity.

In fact, his point negates many considered contradictions of Christianity.

For instance, if God is all knowing and all loving, what is the explanation for the history of human suffering? Most believers, unable to articulate this obvious paradox state simply that “God works in mysterious ways”.

No he doesn’t.

The problem is that we humans think in mysterious ways.

“I have a problem with a religion that says faith in itself is enough for a ticket to heaven. In other words, that the ideal is your ability to manipulate your own common sense to accept something your intellect rejects.”  – The Redeemer by Jo Nesbo

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“Are we all equally sick? Is the difference only who lets the monster loose and who doesn’t?” – Police by Jo Nesbo

I wonder.

If I wasn’t me, would I like me?

Why is it that as we grow older we become more set in our ways? Less tolerant of different points of view?

We close the circle. Kick all but the most loyal dogs out?

In rare moments of honest introspection, my narrow minded spirit mocks me.

So would I like me? I’m not sure. Not all of me, I think.

I believe I have a good heart. But boy am I dumb.

What about smart but with no heart? Naw. That’s no good.

Why not both? Smart with a good heart.

I know a few people like that. But man are they naïve.

Naive sounds good. Innocent. Blemish free. But I would want the smart and good heart as well.

Anyway, do I like me? Sometimes.

What about you? Would you like you?

“Between the pages of a book is a lovely place to be”

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The Boss?

“People can change, but they cannot change their essential natures.” – Hurt Machine by Reed Farrel Coleman

What to do. What to do.

Ever had a boss you liked personally who had no business being a boss?

Who had no clue, not even a microscopic hint, of how to address problems with another.

You could hit them square in the face with a bat of common sense and it wouldn’t even register.

They just don’t know. And never will.

Worse. Their disability is dangerous to your sense of wellbeing, accomplishment and even joy of life.

A review of work related problems with them is like stepping on a rake and having the handle strike you, with force, in the face.

If you’re me, you react in kind. In their face. Take this job and shove it you dumb son of a bitch.

Now what. An hour later, while you’re still worked up and blood is pounding your nerve center like a hammer, you begin to question, just a little, your reaction.

Why did I do that? It didn’t accomplish a thing. Well…… felt good at the time. He is an idiot. But a nice guy. Rather likable. But dumb. Damn.

What to do? What to do?

“Unresolved feelings were probably at the root of more pain and destruction than any other single cause in the history of humankind” – Hurt Machine by Reed Farrel Coleman

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Kitchen Logic

“His senses went numb at the mystery and immensity of time” – Police by Jo Nesbo

Dad……….this morning mom said something about Kitchen Logic. What was she talking about?

Well son…….have you heard of Black Holes in space? Dark matter? These are just a few of the great mysteries. Kitchen logic is merely one of many euphemisms for the greatest mystery of all, the female thought process. Female Logic to be precise.

As you progress through life and experience all it has to offer, it will become stunningly clear to you that the words female and logic do not equate. At least not in our world.

Sooooooooooo………..accept and ignore. Do not try to understand. Even they don’t understand.

Just beware, they take advantage of this biological/emotional quirk to keep us off balance and vulnerable.

Avoid the trap. When she explains anything as Kitchen Logic, back off. Walk away. Unless of course you have time to kill as your ears are chewed off and your brain is reduced to mush.

Other phrases and traps to avoid:

Does this make me look fat?

What did you mean by that?

Am I pretty?

Do you think she is pretty?

Take this road.

Do you like my hair?

And finally, the most obvious example of the aberration as we know it: “I’ll be ready in 5 minutes.”

And yet, we probably wouldn’t change a thing. Well…..maybe the time thing.

“You soon become lonely if you want to use your own brain to find answers” – The Redeemer by Jo Nesbo

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“Sometimes life has a cruel sense of humor, giving you the thing you always wanted at the worst time possible”

Saturday morning. Weekly phone conversation with my daughter.

So things are really dull around here now that they’re not moving any rigs out.

Poor guy.

Maybe. It’s weird. When we were moving rigs out of here weekly it was hectic and the work got tiresome. We were praying for days like this. Hardly any traffic. Not much to do.

Now that we’re not moving rigs out, most of the time I sit on my butt and read. Or walk. Or contemplate.

Mind you, I’m not complaining……………….yet.

So…………you miss the hectic activity.

Well…………..possibly. At least some of it. It’s like longing for July in January. When you have it, you don’t enjoy it but you miss it when you don’t.

I need to learn to appreciate the wonderfulness of boredom.

“You cannot open a book without learning something” – Confucius

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Line In The Dirt

“Nothing disappears in its entirety, everything leaves a trace in some way, somewhere” – Police by Jo Nesbo

Let’s be clear. I’m not a perpetually angry man. Just very curious.

Curious about, among many things, the human experience.

Take the concept of forgiveness.

Forgive and forget. Move on. Oh yeah. Easy for you to say.

Are you a forgiver? Do you easily absolve transgressions?

See………..I don’t. I can’t. I’ve tried. Just not in my DNA.

Screw with me or my loved ones. Abuse an animal. Cut me deep with intent or through lack of concern. That wound stays with me for a long, long time.

Forgive and forget. Failure to do so will only debilitate me. What?

And you know this how?

Isn’t it possible to abhor and never forgive certain egregious acts without being consumed?

Think about it.

 “History is full of men who do some pretty dishonorable things, all in the name of honor” – To the Last Man by Jeff Shaara

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There were drawbacks to knowing anyone to well, and yet there was no way to avoid this” – Point of No Return by John P. Marquand

So my friend……………..looking back on your life, any regrets?

Of course. Many. One……… that I didn’t kill a few troglodytes.

Are you serious?

Well………… a manner of speaking. Rare is the soul who hasn’t crossed paths with evil. And evil is not redeemable. So why allow it? At any rate, I don’t dwell on it. Just a knee jerk reaction to your question.


Regrets? Well, probably. I’d have to think about it.

Lucky you.

“I wake up at night in a cold sweat imagining that I have lived and done nothing” – George Patton

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“People without a sense of humor are the most dangerous folks in the world” – Etta by Gerald Kolpan

I don’t know about “most dangerous”. And yet, maybe so. Certainly they are dangerous. For a variety of reasons.

I think humans are born with a sense of humor. It seems to come at us naturally.

Some unfortunate souls lose it along the way. Life just sucks it out of them.

What replaces that joyful spirit is frequently alarming.



I value humor above all other emotions. Make me laugh and I will love you completely, forever.

“The Gods envy anyone who is too happy” – One man’s experience of prison by John Hoskison

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Too Long.

“I’m either going to jump out of my skin or vibrate to pieces” – Once was lost by Mathew Iden

All of my working life I’ve been a dedicated, hardworking employee. Loyal to the company. Did more than was required. A valuable asset.

Finished with the corporate world and started my own successful business. Built that up but 7 years later physical health forced a change.

These past seven years we’ve been working in the oil fields of South Texas.

Till recently we’ve enjoyed the experience.

Now………………not so much.

After 11 months of working in a progressively deteriorating environment without a day off, I’ve changed. Fundamentally. Emotionally. Physically.

If the body, the mind, and your good common sense all scream…………….Listen.

All of this will end shortly.

“You think everything is simple when you’re young; you know nothing about the impossible decisions you may have to face” – The Snowman by Jo Nesbo

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“In order to isolate what was possible, you had to eliminate everything that was impossible” – One man’s experience of Prison by John Hoskison will, for a nominal fee, test one’s DNA and generate an ancestral report. A good thing if you want to know how much German or whatever blood you have.

Several months ago my son decided to take the test. So he paid the fee, submitted the DNA sample and settled down to await the results.

In my ignorance of the subject, I advised him that he was 50% French and 50% an English-German mix.

So wrong.

The results were that he was 51% English/Irish with the remaining 49% some undefined mix of middle European/Iberian Peninsula, Slavic mix.


What about his mother’s French blood? If she’s pure French he must be at least 50% French. Right?

Logical conclusion: his mother is not pure French. I jokingly advised her that she was a mutt. A regular Heinz 57. Not pure anything.

She did not take this well. Not at all.

So my curiosity prevailed. I googled the subject and learned that I was wrong. Wow. The combinations of Ancestry and traits etc. that we can inherit from our parents are almost limitless.

So who knew? Certainly I didn’t.

We are going to get to the bottom of this French question. I’ve ordered the test for my wife.

We shall see. I’m either married to a French Poodle or a mutt. So to speak. Whatever.

“Life is too complicated, too constantly changing, to be anything but what it is” – An Unquiet Mind by Kay Jamison

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