“He secured a position on an ice wagon/Where his collateral was soon frozen”… W.C. Fields
From “Melancholy Baby” by Robert B. Parker.
Sunny Randall drinking coffee in a café with her father who is a retired police officer. Sunny is a private detective.
Sunny: “No Decaf?”
Father: “I hate Decaf”
Sunny “Most people say as they get older, real coffee keeps them awake.”
“It keeps you awake, but you drink it anyway.”
“You could learn to like Decaf”
“Oh….of course. I hadn’t thought of that”
I love to read……always have. I love the great authors. They create wonderful moments with an insightful arrangement of words and grammar. They introduce us to other people, lands, key moments in history and so much more. More often than not, they put into words thoughts, feelings, and emotions that I experience but cannot express or even understand. For this, I am eternally in their debt.
As for the above snippet, it is part of a larger conversation Sunny is having with her father. Coming to grips with her troubled youth is an ongoing task and she hopes her father will shed some light on the matter.
I just loved the way the author kept the conversation going so that it could move onto the important issue.
“You were a good father. You never disapproved of me.”
“Not much to disapprove of……………except that all-night in high school.”
I felt like crying. When I spoke, my voice was shaky.
“I love you Daddy.”
“I love you too.”
“You did what you could.”
“So did your mother.”
“It wasn’t quite enough.”
My father looked straight at me for a moment. I felt fourteen again.
“I think, probably, it never is.”
So often we try to blame our parents for whatever problems we have.
Seems to me that if, in your heart, you know your parents did the best they could with whatever their circumstances in life were, you can make peace with them and yourself. At least it’s the first step.
“If the new American father feels bewildered and even defeated, let him take comfort from the fact that whatever he does in any fathering situation has a fifty percent chance of being right.” Bill Cosby